Don’t feel too suffocated. You’ll get all the good things. I’d love to help you somehow. There are always people who care for you. When you’re depressed you don’t see that. Good progess or change can be so slow at times that it might look like it’s not even happening. But when you come all the way then you can realize about the slow progress that made things better. That is why take one day at a time. Make short term plans that will eventually lead upto something better. But the important thing is you’ve to keep on trying. A bit by bit.